Dear birth parents


Bianca Bujan
Focus on Adoption magazine

A letter from an adoptee

For most of my life, I hadn’t thought about my birth parents: where I came from, who they were, or why they had chosen to give me up. For me, the only thing that mattered was that I had parents who loved me and who chose to be my parents.

When I met my biological father just over three years ago, I was overwhelmed by his reaction to reconnecting with me. He spoke as though he had known me and loved me for my entire life—this “stranger” who hadn’t crossed my mind even once as I had transitioned through childhood and into my adult years.

I felt a strong bond with him as our relationship started to blossom, but I was sometimes confused when he became overcome by emotion.

When we reunited in person, his eyes would fill with tears. I could hear in his voice a certain desperation, as  though he was holding himself back from bursting at the seams. This both comforted and scared me, as to me, he was still a stranger.

We wrote to each other every day for almost two years, and met in person half a dozen times, until he passed  away suddenly and unexpectedly on Christmas Eve in 2012.

I feel like so many things between us were left unsaid. After having spoken with friends who are birth parents, and with fellow adoptees, I feel like sharing some of those unspoken feelings through an open letter to birth parents from the perspective of an adoptee.

Dear birth parents,

I am so thankful that you made the choice that you did – to carry and deliver your baby, and to choose to provide that baby with a home and a life that you didn’t feel you were able to provide on your own. This was the ultimate act of selflessness, and I’m sure it was the hardest thing you have ever had to do.

I can’t imagine how difficult it has been to move through your life with the thought of that baby always living in the back of your mind—wondering if they are safe, if you made the right decision, if they are loved.

You may one day feel an overwhelming need to seek out that child, to look into the eyes of your offspring and tell them that you’re sorry, that you did what you thought was best for them, and that you have never stopped thinking about them.

They may accept you back into their lives, and you may feel an overwhelming urge to make them a part of yours once again and to make up for all of those lost years.

For an adoptee, reuniting with birth parents can be a mix of emotions: resentment, confusion, curiosity,  fulfillment, forgiveness. While you may feel overcome by emotions, desperate to catch up and make that child a part of your life once more, the child may respond with hesitance, reluctance, and caution.

Please don’t feel offended; be patient.

It will take time for them to find a place in their hearts for you. It will take time for them to understand the  choices that you’ve made, and to understand your perspective.

Don’t push, and don’t pull back. If they have agreed to reunite with you, they will come around. Don’t overwhelm them. Share your stories, but also listen to theirs. Don’t pressure them into putting titles on your relationship.  Just go with the flow.

One final piece of advice: let them lead. As much as you may want to dive in, let them take the wheel. They may  need to take things slowly. After all, choosing to reunite with someone who once chose to give you up can be a confusing decision.

Whereever life may have led you, you are amazing. You have put someone’s needs before your own, and this is  truly commendable. You have given someone the gift of life, and someone else a child to love. I wish you luck,  love, and acceptance.

An Adoptee

Bianca Bujan is a career mommy of three. She works as a business development manager for a digital media company by day, and her evenings and weekends are spent catching up on quality time with her husband and three beautiful children.

This article originally appeared as a post on Bianca’s blog, Bits of Bee. Visit for more from Bianca.

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